I lie in bed sometimes and think about what happens if this relationship falls apart. If this developing “us” goes to pieces. If I’ll be left again, or if I’ll hurt someone as badly as I have been hurt in the past. What a beautiful gift is someone’s heart and how fragile it can be. How much power we give to someone else when we love them.
Why do we do it? I lie there and wonder why I shouldn’t just find a comfortable hobbit hole to live in and be comfortably and safely alone.
And all I come up with is that the rewards are worth the risks. The joy of loving and of being loved outweighs the pain of being hurt. Add in our tendency to allow current emotions to overwhelm our past heartaches and we find that loving grows our hearts and it grows ourselves. It is when we put others first without begrudging them for it. And it is happiness in the smallest of things. A smile. A hand on your leg. A message left for you to find.
So why? Because it’s worth it.
Transmetropolitan is a cyberpunk comic book series written by Warren Ellis with art by Darick Robertson and published by DC Comics. The series was originally part of the short-lived DC Comics imprint Helix, but upon the end of the book’s first year the series was moved to the Vertigo imprint as DC Comics cancelled the Helix imprint. It chronicles the battles of Spider Jerusalem, infamous renegade gonzo journalist of the future, an homage to gonzo journalism founder Hunter S. Thompson. Spider Jerusalem dedicates himself to fighting the corruption and abuse of power of two successive United States presidents; he and his “filthy assistants” strive to keep their world from turning more dystopian than it already is while dealing with the struggles of fame and power, brought about due to the popularity of Spider via his articles.
I’ll admit, I’m not really familiar with Hunter S. Thompson other than the basics I’ve gleaned over the years. But I’m about 3/4 of the way through Year 1 and I’m really grooving into it.
Our intrepid hero
Art: The art is pretty awesome. It does a good job of showing how vulgar this future is while being oddly beautiful at the same time.
Themes: What does it mean to be human? Is it the brain? The body? The soul? What happens when you change any of those things or graft on technology or download yourself to a very literal “cloud?” It touches on police brutality, political corruption and of course, journalism. I would certainly call it transhuman.
I don’t have a LOT of comic experience, but I definitely recommend this one based on what I’ve read so far. All kinds of alternate sexualities are present, and only occasionally used to turn down Spider, but it isn’t the focus of the story.
Polyamorous… Subject remains open to seeking multiple romantic relationships at the same time with the knowledge and consent of all parents. Subject is currently dating multiple people.
Pansexual… Subject remains attracted to individuals regardless of sex or gender. Subject retains her unrequited crush on P!NK and has been known to state that she “would have [P!NK’s] babies.”
Geek… Subject LARPs between 1-3 times per month. She participates in regular tabletop RPGs, reads excessive amounts of fantasy and science fiction, and is working on finding a a pattern for a “Jayne hat” for her boyfriend.
Girl… Subject retains gender identity.
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I feel the urge to write and get my feelings and thoughts out and down onto paper, er… screen. And I suppose that I feel like I’m finally in a place where my experiences can also be useful to other people. This isn’t because everything is roses and rainbows, but because I am very secure in myself… most of the time, and my insecurities are the type that need a good long workout, not just a quick jog around the block.
The next couple of posts will be a current status, and a catch-up history of the past year or so since I last blogged.
Anyone out there reading please let me know what you’d like to see here besides my own random thoughts – movie reviews? books? news stories? I don’t really know what I want to make out of this thing here yet.
I’m going to try to sticky this for a bit to keep it at the top of things for feedback purposes, when I actually have some readers!
Yeah, that’s right, I’m bringing it back.